Thursday, December 31, 2009

The Numbers Going Up

No, I am not talking about weight (although I am certain that those numbers have gone up this week as well...)  I am talking about age. 

Yes, It is THAT day of the year.

Now, normally I love birthdays.  I spend the whole month of December telling everyone I am about to have one, how old I will be, and what fabulous plans I have for the day.  The beatuty of having a birthday on New Years Eve is that I don't have to plan a party to go to one, there are always choices.

But not this year....

I have been trying to work out what is different this year.  It is not one of the "big ones".  Just a regular late 30's birthday.  And I think in the last few days I have worked out what the problem is.  For the first time since becoming a "grown up" I have actually felt my age.  Physically.  Emotionally.  Spiritually.  In fact, I feel older than 37.  Much older.  This year has left it's mark on me. 

So no parties for me today.  The Mum's are coming over for lunch, but that's it.  We are spending tonight, the final evening of 2009, home alone together.  We just want the year to finish quietly and peacefully.

I have finalised my list of 10 goals for 2010 which I will talk about tomorrow.

Until then I would like to wish you all a very happy New Year.  I hope that 2010 sees all your hopes and dreams come true.

xox

2 comments:

Emz said...

Awwww HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! You almost snuck that one by me :P

I'm sorry you feel your age... because you don't act it! If I hadn't known your age, by reading your log I would have thought you were much younger. You have a young spirit!

It sounds like it's been a tough year though... the list of goals sounds good! I really need to do the same thing and actually stick to them.

Happy New Year :)
Em xox

Groover said...

Happy Birthday and have a wonderful peaceful day. 2009 will slip away quietly and 2010 will bring lots of joy and amazing experiences. 2009 has been a challenging year for many people so see as an opportunity to grow ... not older but wiser. :-)