Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Putting it Out There

Last night I gave my 2 posts from yesterday and the comments I received a lot of thought.  I know I am getting stuck 'in my head' which is usually when I collapse in a heap.  The result of discussions with the boy and deep thinking is that I will not be joining the gym - I can not afford it.  Also, I don't like gyms.  Never have.  So would I use it?  No, probably not.  I will save up and buy a treadmill when we are living somewhere more permanent again.

As for all the other accountability stuff, I know that the only person I am accountable to is me.  I know that I constantly let myself down.  And I know that if I don't find a way to fix this, I will never reach my goals.

A few weeks ago when I started my training programs I mentioned a large fitness goal I had in mind that I wasn't ready to share.  I am still not really ready to share it, but I am thinking maybe I should.  This is something I don't know if I will ever be able to do, but something I want to try.  And if you all know about it, it may be the mental kick I need to keep moving forward.

So here it is...

I want to run a Marathon before I am 40 (just under 3 years).

Am I insane?  Yes.  Considering I can currently only run for 1 minute and we are talking about running for 6 hours.  But there you go.  Now you all know so I have to get my butt into gear...

Thank you everyone for the comments yesterday.  I really did listen to what you were all saying and it really does mean a lot to me.

xox

3 comments:

MelBird said...

I'm so proud of you :)
I've read more articles than I can count about people who have gone from having weight issues to doing Ironman and Marathons. Anything is acheiveable and I know you can acheieve anything you set your mind to.
Maybe you need to set yourself free? I know it sounds a bit weird but maybe you need to forgive yourself for where you are now and what has happened in the last year so you can move onto the next stage. Yes, you might have regressed BUT dwelling on that will just weight you down mentally to where you want to go in the future. Hmmm maybe a wonky analogy will help - if you trying to walk toward something and you keep looking back over your shoulder then you're probably going to trip over on the way. Focux on where you're going and the trip on the way rather than what you did before.
As I said, I know you can do it. You just need to believe that you can do it xoxoxoxo

swayerm said...

You are so not mad. I want to do a half ironman and/or iron man, and that's not only twice as mad, but almost three times. And totally achievable. If you have a fitness goal in mind, it's a lot better for you than just numbers. Something to get you outside, something to get you running. And you don't need a gym anyway, just get into the outdoors!!!
I can't run too well either, yet I sucked it up and entered my Triathlon... I have less than three weeks, and I still can't run!! But I am going to give it a red hot crack anyway. I can only improve from there on, right?

Well done on getting it out there :D

Kylie said...

Thank you both for your encouragement. It really does mean a lot. :o)